"When it all fades"

I want to tell 2 people something. Let's call them A and B.

A; I suppose, as time passes, we've sort of drifted from each other. Not physically. I don't know. Emotionally, I think. I've got to be the stupidest person to ever let you go. Now, you have your own schedule, and I've got mine. And somehow, I don't feel that we're as close as before. Perhaps you've realised that too. Whatever it is, I hope we can get through this together. I love you. I really do.

B; Thank you for always being there for me. You've been such a great best friend. I couldn't ask for anyone better. You've always been there for me, even when I become a spoilt brat. Today's really funny. It's through times like this, that makes me appreciate you even more. And though you've failed to make me go home, I appreciate the effort(: I really didn't expect you to be so firm. Haha. Guess crying a little in front of you made you soften up. Geez. Should try that more often. Thank you so much for everything. I love you.

School's pretty. Eventful today. I really appreciate my awesome friends. They tried to make me go home, but apparently, they failed.

Being sick makes me realise a lot of things. I don't think this is the best place to say this, but I have to. If not, I'll scream, seriously.

If you really are my friend, you wouldn't do this to me. Somehow, I'm sick of all this. Really sick. First you assumed something, then get all mad at me. What kind of friend does that? I tried to explain. But you can't be bothered, even to listen, can you? Have you ever spared a thought for my feelings? I somehow doubt so. Maybe, I should just keep quiet like I've always been. Maybe, my opinions don't matter at all. Maybe. Just maybe. Hopefully not.

EOYs are just round the corners. Like. 10 more days. I've got to work really really hard.


Nobody wins this time.
I can't comprehend. I really can't.