"And hold nothing back"

I've made a very important decision today. And it's my secret. Heehee.

Not for once, that I'm able to think less. Nothing was made clearer through words. And actions always bring unwanted misunderstandings. Today, I felt as if we were back to square one. I'm just recovering from your lies. I'm not going to let you bring me down again. I promised myself that I won't. I'm not gonna let you treat me as a substitution again. I'm your friend, not your last resort.

And you know what? I'm gonna hold my head up. I'm going to just let go of everything, and hold nothing back. But it's getting hard. Because today, you just proved that you won't change. In fact, you did things, that probably allowed me to despise you more. And me, trying to convince myself that this's all supposed to be, is kind of getting old.

Alright. I'll try not to blog till EOYs are over. The prospect of having a neglected blog is so abstract. Teehee.

Till my conscience next permits me.

Love,
Eileen.