"11 more days"

Oh bother. EOYs. It's gonna be so screwed. My past three terms' results ain't that spectacular either. Well, mainly due to the fact that I persisted in the mindset that EOYs would pull me up. Guess that compromised my efforts. It won't happen again, I hope. I really have to work hard now. But everything's just so hard. I really really don't want to study. I'm feeling so restless nowadays. That's bad.

Suddenly I feel like I have a thousand and one things to do and I'm sick of making lists of things I'll never finish. You know, I don't really say it but sometimes I'm really afraid. Sometimes things are so routined that I don't even feel anything at all; I'm just going though the motions. I don't know why I'm doing it, all I know is I need to, I need to and I need to.

Chapel today. The message really struck me. It's times like this where I'm really awed by God. They talked about facing the giants in our lives. But I didn't really pay much attention in chapel. It saddens me that I didn't even bother trying. I was too distracted. And then, cell. We talked and evaluated about the cell group, and we shared a lot of things. There's this verse, that we shared during cell group in class. I locked it somewhere at the back of my mind, not really taking it to heart. Now that I remember it, it suddenly means so much more.

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you
and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

And again, it hits me. What can I possibly say?

I need to reflect on myself. I need to go back to God.

And I will be still, know you are God.

Sheesh. So much for my hiatus.

Tag replies.
[sheryl] Heh(:
[ET] Haha! Psb, I hope you grow to be a mature young lady. "Can I have one more piece?" Tsk.
[RINA] Hello
[Sam] I have no idea. Haha!
[SHU:D] Shu ah! I bet she loves that post a lot.
[Ann] Can we go now, instead of after Os? Please?
[olivia] Hello(:
[weedy] Ngiam, what's your problem? What's with the quotation missy? (:
[Sharon] Oi. Can one ok! Ok. Replying you kinda defeats the purpose of hiatus. Hey! How was I supposed to know what time? Ok. Well. Maybe that tag is to wish you all the best for your results :D I'm a master at giving excuses. Heh.