Just a few months ago, I never thought I'd give up on this friendship of ours. But apparently, this ain't the case. I've long lost hope of everything. I thought time could heal all wounds. I told myself that we just needed some time to set apart our differences. And that everything would be ok.

And now, I never thought I would think about you again. I never thought that you were an important part of my life. I've always thought that anyone else could just pick me up from where you left me and that I'd forget all about you. I thought that I've long gotten over it. I've always thought I was in control of my life. But now, I ain't so sure.

Yesterday, I decided to stay at home to finish my homework.
Yesterday, I took a break.
Yesterday, while I was taking a break, the song 'yesterday' came on.
Yesterday, upon hearing the song, I decided to look at our pictures.
Yesterday, I realised many things which I havn't had the privelege to see, all these while.
Yesterday, I for one, stumbled upon the pictures we took altogether,and it was yesterday, that I finally realised how much I missed it all.
Yesterday, I finally learnt how to treasure, to cherish and to remember.
Yesterday, when I was looking at our happy faces, I had a new perspective.I now know, that all those times, all those memories, are not as easy to come by as I thought.It is proof, that I never did treasure those times, as I simply let it all go.
I thought, I would never get affected. I thought, the past, actually didn't matter. I thought, I could start afresh and create new memories.
Yes, it is true that I could, I could find new friends to love and to laugh, but no, I will never find another picture, like the ones we made.

Today, I look back on yesterday, and,I never once stopped crying.Because, even though it was yesterday that I finally woke up,it is only today,that I finally give up.

I have to give up I'm sorry. It's not any of you, it's me.I can't go on because I took a step,a wrong step,and this is the consequence I have to pay. There's no turning back.In the first place,it was never your fault. I'm so sorry.You are not a faggot bitch.I am...
Everything's in a whiz. I'm in a maze, trying to find my way out.
If only I had the privelege of not seeing you anymore.