i realised that recently, i've been lying to myself more and more. lying to myself about people. they'll change. yea right. change my foot. if he really did change, pigs will fly. what a crazy way to explain it. but i guess it's true. i'm constanly living in self denial please. hilary can testify to that. HAHA! sometimes, i lay on my bed thinking: why did this happen? why am i like this? why is this world like that? all the why why why. gah. haha.

i think i seriously should go admit myself to IMH. partner's high and crazy all the time. haha. should book a room for her soon. but anyway, that's besides the point. school's such a drag. i don't even know what im going to school for. study study study. urgh. i get sick of this monotonous cycle please. i should stop thinking so much and work hard for my cts already. i need motivation. HAHA.

today, i added a new thing under my resolution: stop copying homework. HAHAHA! what ernhuei said woke me up ok? HAHA. "don't copy. you'll never learn" HAHA. WISEST thing she ever said i tell you. HAHA. and so, i stopped copying and put back psb's geog book and started copying from the textbook. still copying. BUT. im copying from myself. HAHA. what a dumb way to express it man. HAHA. ok. still doing pw. driving me nuts i tell you. haha. ok. i'll go finish it. byebye

go on. throw your weight around. i'll play along