Constantly I’ve been telling myself, “Don’t. It’s ridiculous.”. And I’m quite glad that it’s working. I think I seem rational enough. I’m finally able to block out thoughts like this.
Sometimes I wish we are not so superficial. Sometimes I hate changes- the fear, anticipation (or the lack of it). Sometimes I hate the way we neglect things, we only care about what’s better in comparison, we discard the old. I wonder why I am always late, even by a bit. Why am I always this close to getting something, always almost but never there?
You can’t get everything you want- so deal with it.
They say happiness is a choice.

lalala. ok. i dunno how to use wordpress so i shall use back blogger:D ahaha. butbutbut. i want protected post la please. HAHA. then more fun. can type all the f words and whatever shit inside. HAHA. nyeh.

prefect's installation ytd. saw sheryl, psb, ernhuei, sharon, valerie. HAHA. they look damn cute nyeh. HAHA. andandand. maluating thing happened. shan't elaborate. cause if i wanted you to know, i'd already told you(:

nyeh. today's such fun:D gossiping with seah hui ying and potty:D:D i love potty potty. hui ying damn funny please. haha. gossiping with them rocks(:

oh. did i mention? i got a frigging f9 for amaths. so hurray! rocks la. and. there's one thing i wanna tell a particular someone. if you hate me, just charge your hatred towards me. don't go complain to other ppl abt me and start an opposition gang and start bitching to ppl abt me and tell ppl how sucky i am or whatever shit. and when ppl agrees with you, you'll go: YAY! everyone supports me. no one supports her. so im pro" and if you wanna re enact the scene again, by all means, go ahead. i don't mind being a loner again(: i still can't believe i actually thought you were nice. guess i was wrong. from now on, i don't even give a damn ok. sometimes, you need to think of others. not just yourself. the world doesn't revolve around you you idiot. maybe you should take a look at other people and know how they feel. but for now, you can just go screw yourself. don't say i said you. because i didn't mention your name. i didn't specify anyone so if you think it's you, then maybe it's you. and i have done my job. because you're feeling guilty. so good job to me(:

now i kind of realised how people change. to suit their environment, crowds; conformity, whatnot. but still, isn't that just adaptation? yet it's beyond my understanding why certain, people are able to remain so utterly ignorant. it beats me, how they posess this incredible ability to permit such sudden, and in my opinion, schizophrenic alteration. it just hurts when the people you thought you once knew suddenly drifted apart from you. it's really a veryvery lousy feeling. maybe it's difficult to notice the change in friendships though all the busy lives that we lead, and the change in heart and mindset. bleh. im suddenly being. um. what's the word. oh yes. suddenly having mature thoughts. sometimes, i wonder what's in for me. another disappointment? another failure?
time is passing sososo slowly. and everything's going sososo fast. ironic much? sometimes im just afraid through all this, i might just crash into time. ok. maybe that's not such a bad thing. maybe i can crash into time and see what happened in the past or what will happen in the future. ok. im getting nonsensical.


i didn't turn my back on you. you're the one who turned away from me first.