sumino rinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! you're going to china tmr)))))))= and you're gone for 10 days??????????? purposely leave me to rot with the juniors. rahhhh... things will be so awkward luhh... i don't care. you better hurry come back from that chinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. =PPPPP haha. ok whatever.

what's happened to me? i used to be so friendly and approachable. why am i so icy and cold now? i mean. im sorry for venting my anger out on the juniors. ya. juniors. im sorry. i didn't mean it. it's just that i was very pissed off that day and you all were disobeying the seniors. im sorry for lashing out at you all... i really didn't mean it. i guess i was just so pissed that i didn't consider any of your feelings. im really really sorry.

i mean. honestly. what's happened to me? im not that talkative, not that friendly, not that approachable anymore. i changed so much. i don't like this me. i want to crap and joke like i used to. but i can't find a way to do what i used to. im like restricted from what i used to do by myself. i really want to be the old me, where i can joke arnd and crap no matter how bad things are. but why am i so darn quiet. i don't even know myself. im like a totally changed person. i miss all the things i used to do. i miss talking and crapping and laughing. i miss making ppl laugh. i miss the old me. and most of all, i miss being me.