urgh. i can't stand even a single damn second of my life. thanks to one particualr person. AT LEAST wen shi can make me happy. sherilyn chee can make me happy. isabel can make me happy. ern huei can make me happy. esther can make me happy. psb can make me happy. and all you're capable of is to make me emo???? oh fine. i don't even know why i even know you. you're just capable of dampenning my mood when other people make me happy? i dont' even know you anymore. you're just so... vague in my life now. i just don't know what to say. i might have hurt you unknowingly. but you could've known better. i used to be myself arnd you but now, i have to put on a facade. i don't even know who i am now. urgh. and when my friends ask 'where is that ego, high and retarded person that i used to know?' and i really don't know how to answer them. i really really don't know. but now i guess i know the answer. the old eileen that you used to know is dead. and she'll never come back again. well... i really don't know how to face you now. i guess it's goodbye then. bye upside down world.