today was like some freaking piss people off day or smth. rina made me damn pissed off. well... it's not her fault right? can't blame her. and then came wenshi and her emo-ness saying that i was spending more time with et. and how i don't seem to care abt her.
ok. so i shall dedicate this post to her.
wenshi. i really don't know what to say to you. it's just that... well.. complicated. i mean. i didn't mean to like ignore you or whatever but it's just that well... some things just can't be said. like you said, i spent more time with et than with you. i cared more abt belwy. or whatsoever. but i really CARE about you. and you're like the bestest sis that i can ever have. and i really love you and ok. i don't know what to say next. but just sense the morning silences we have everyday, making things awkward. and sometimes i even wonder if you even know that i existed. i remember that time last year where we had a big quarrel and ended up not speaking to each other for months. and those few months im practically living in hell... it's like. i dunno what to say. but we still made up didn't we? and this time round, i TRIED to make things less awkward. but you just brush it off like nothing ever happened. and well.. your words really stung. im really sorry my actions hurt that much. i didn't know it would cause so much pain... im sorry. and. i really don't know what to say to you. you might not believe me or whatsoever. but really. i REALLY DO CARE ABOUT YOU! i love you more than i love et. it's like. i know that she's my bestest friend and yes. i do love her. but just because i say that i love doesn't mean that i don't love you! i really love you. and well... i guess all this words are spoken too late. damage been done and im really sorry for what i did. well... i guess that's all i have to say to you. ya. and i really do love you.

ok. stop that emo-ness... but i can't stop it. how? cause PEOPLE LOVES TO MAKE ME EMO. PEOPLE LIKE SUMINO. she makes me damn emo. but i still love her. HAHA. ok. whatever. byebye