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Friday, January 12, 2007 18:21 i think i just have to rant a little. just read if you want to. if you don't want to... then don't read. i hate school life. i hate band. i hate my teachers. i hate a lot a lot of things. and then today i got super pissed off and i just want to scream. and then i went for sectionals feeling very very pissed off and sarah teo had to make it worse by asking me to play the drumset. i DON'T WANT TO PLAY THE DRUMSET! GET IT??? I DON'T LIKE THE DRUMS. I DON"T WANT TO BE THE ONLY SEC 2 IN PERCUSSION. i WANT TO QUIT BAND. i don't like anything. i hate everything except for my friends and rina and joyce. I HATE EVERYTHING. i know that im useless. SUPERBLY USELESS. but can i help it??? I AM USELESS! I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT! I AM LOUSY.HAPPY??? i admit that im lousy. HAPPY??? if i just jump off the building and commit suicide, no one would care... NO ONE!!! and then this person will be so happy that she's going to skip around everyday without seeing my face. i don't know how i got so emo. don't ask me. im just having mood swing. im just being depressed and disappointed and lousy and frustruatedand dejected and hopeless and worthless. yes. i don't show it. i just don't. cause im just putting on a facade. trying to be strong. im weak. happy??? it's like everything i do or say is wrong. i think that i suck. seriously suck. so why was i even born into this world??? just what's the problem with me????????? i don't know... anyone want to tell me? just why am i not letting go????? i think im really lousy at expressing myself. i know that im lousy. you don't have to tell me. it makes me feel lousier. bye blog. i'll just go and sleep and never ever wake up again. |
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